I think I'm having my PMS at the moment. Okay, too much info but oh well noone reads my blog anymore anyways :] So it's more like me... writing for my own benefit. So okay, I've been getting all pissy about being the middle child. I think I even sound like a whiny attention seeking bitch. But, honestly I'm not... But then again I can't stop whoever is reading this from jusging me. So anyways...

I've got an older sister and a younger brother -.-
Little brother being the 'guy' child and being able to carry the family surname and my sister well, she's the oldest child and is the first to almost finish uni so she gets everything she wants as well.

I want something I have to ask, yet I still don't get it. My little brother wants something he usually just gets it by asking. My sister wants something, she asks and gets it as a 'surprise gift'.

I wanted a phone and all my parents say is: "I'll give you this if you lose weight or i'll give you that if you get good grades." But my siblings don't have to -.-

People would call me well off and say I get everything I want. But I don't. I WANT stuff but I don't always get them. I want to get something from a shop my mum says no. My little brother wants something? Sure why not. My sister wants something? Well she can always get it by herself whenever she wants mainly.


What I want?
To save up and go some place where nobody knew me and I could just go do my own thing. Live a life without comparing myself to my siblings and not needing to think my parents don't care about me. ._.

Life's a bitch. But I'll just have to live with it.